When we emerge out onto the grubby street the atmosphere changes, darkens. If I thought it was some kind of game before, I know it isn’t now. I feel the hairs on the back of my neck stand up as fear grips my body. He looks at me again, impassive, unreadable. I think about my flat, the comfy sofa, the bottle of wine waiting for me in the fridge. It seems they are in some other life, that I have left behind. Then I can’t think about anything, as he grabs me by the arm and drags me along the pavement, digging his fingers into the flesh of my arm.
‘Hurry up bitch’.
An alleyway appears and he leads me in, shoving me against the wall. He parts my legs with his, and pushes his body into mine, with all his strength. Now, I could not escape if I tried. I can feel the hardness of his cock against my clothes. He rubs it against me slowly and deliberately. Then he takes my face in one of his hands and pulls it towards him.
‘Look at me’ he demands. I force myself to look into his eyes, starting to feel a little faint.
‘Tell me you want me inside you’. It almost feels as if I have been drugged. My head is heavy, I want to find the words but I struggle.
‘Say it, whore’. With that he pulls me by my hair, so my head knocks against the brick wall.
‘Yes?’ I feel his cock thrusting into me.
‘I want you in .. me’.
Suddenly he is undoing his trousers, pulling a condom out of nowhere and putting it on before he pushes up my skirt and pulls my knickers to the side. His fingers find me soaking. There is nowhere left to run.
‘You filthy little bitch’
As he fucks me I can feel the back of my legs chafing against the brickwork. I hold onto him as if I might fall. He pinches my nipples and bites my neck, like some kind of animal. There is nothing I can do but take it. Our orgasms come at once, breathless and pained.
When he has finished he does up his trousers and waits while I try to straighten myself out.
Neither of us speak but he beckons and I go to him. He kisses the top of my head.
‘Thank you’ he says. ‘Thank-you girl’.
And then he is gone. I stumble out of the alleyway onto the street, trying to remember who I am and where I live. As I walk home my tights ripped and my legs sore, I feel a throbbing in my cunt and I smile.